I am expecting more of myself and more of my art, I will be updating regularly starting now!

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All in all expect some great stuff to be posted in the coming weeks!

The list includes:
~hand animated flash toon
~project posts
~speed paints

Going to start a solid “Art work out” and keep to it. My drawing hand is getting ‘fat’.

Also, I have been updating my blog layout to be more fitting, I will enable comments once I have customized the appearance.

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Korik
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2010 was full of disappointment, getting dicked around by people who should know what they’re doing, but don’t. And a whole lot of bad luck. That’s enough about that shitty year.

2011 is going to be AWESOME! So much to do this year its insane! ’11 is the year of life improvements! I have a lot of new years resolutions but I’ll keep those to myself but wow a new year, I am excited. I’m going to post so much more on my blog and on my Flickr and on my website this year.

goodbye and good riddance 2010, heeeelllllooooo 2011!

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Sketch dump oct 2010

Also, I haven’t been posting much on here, I’ve mostly been posting on my new blog, it’s a more personal format, thoughts rants and opinions, the usual.

And remember my new portfolio site Korikjones.com

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Ultimately it comes down to: Am I sane or not. And that really should never be question because the answer is, of course I am. Furthermore if I were insane, truly, I wouldn’t have the capacity for the written word like I seem to think I might possess.

At what point do I discover who I am. It will happen eventually, but where to begin? It seems like anyone who I have any respect for is a part of something or could be if they wanted to. I can become one of these people I ‘respect’ but my question is; When will I discover who I am, and will people like and ‘accept’ me for who I am. The easy answer to the latter is: people won’t necessarily like or accept anything unless it has been floating around in front of them for a long time. As for discovering myself, my brand, my identity to promote myself or even have the confidence to continue whatever it is that I am doing, to have people one day accept me, quite honestly… scares me a bit. The scary bit is not the undertaking of the grand adventure of discovery, more so committing to a focus and never giving up. But only in the sense of leaving what I’m not focusing on, behind.

There seems to be a part of myself, and I’m positive it’s the same feeling as everyone else has, that houses the ‘what if’ phenomenon. And at this point in my life, that is a part of what is halting my commitment to myself. Knowing I have to make a decision and recognizing that undoubtedly that decision will be questioned and shot down by those around me creates a feeling of anxiety that stops me from starting in the first place. And what I am learning is that throughout everything there is no reason to be afraid of  ’what if’  because if you or I never start on something, then we are just living in fear of the things we are afraid to shut out. And what kind of reason is that for never becoming yourself, or figuring out what you really like.

Limitations; we all have them, but limitations are just a set of rules and rules are able to be bent, broken, manipulated, re-written. Just because there are only so many hours in the day doesn’t mean you can’t create something. Its your choice what you do with your energy, its just a matter of what way to channel it. And material possessions could never stop you if you had to create something. All anyone needs truly is a pencil and a pad of paper. End of story.

Aspirations; we all have them, and we need to act on them. We need to explore all our options, elaborate and break it down. If the first idea wasn’t anything special maybe the next one, or the next one after that will be. We have to have the drive to see our aspirations through their lives. Lets not kill them before they’re born.

Passion; This is a common theme in my mind, finding out what I am passionate about. And only I can tell myself what it is. So off I go, to discover.

In the end everyday is another potential start point. Perhaps I have already started and just don’t realize it. But one of these days maybe tomorrow maybe next month, maybe a couple years from now, something will click and I will wake up and realize, hey, this is who I want to be. And the path there will be as much of a reward as that day.

I ended up finishing up a cup of coffee and cutting my hair tonight, Just a little shorter and not so girly as it has been for the last little while. The reason for this is not only to reclaim my individuality as I once had, but to keep the damn hair out of my face when im all sweaty when I’m in the flower beds tilling the soil, that shit is tough. I still have to put some black in my hair because im tired of the all over brown/blonde look, feels, too femme. I gotta stop being so femme, not because of any social reason, moreso for myself and my attitude, I have to bring back my confidence. Weird shit like Hair and tight pants effects my personality on a strange level– It shouldnt, but it does.

Anyways I really hope I make some mad cash on payday so i can spoil myself with a moleskine pocket sketchpad, I’ve been looking at them for years, But for years I’ve only made 9-10$/hour this time round both of my jobs will supply me with ample money. something I wont be used to, money, to spend…/pay off debts.

I know I’m fully capable of pushing myself to my limits and cunning my way around life and making everything work. I have a couple stable jobs now, so the logical thing to do is spend my free time doing art stuff. I would love to take on some commercial stuff in the next few months. But for now I’m just finishing up a couple little side projects. Gotta finish those so i can start more.

Anyways, back to it.

/rant